destiny

well, today is a good day! my darling fuzzface is officially healthy enough to get her vaccines! she was so good at the vet's - i got to go back with her to the treatment room, because there was a student meeting, so fewer bodies and room for me. as people came in and out, they greeted her by name - everyone seems to know her, which is lovely because she is indeed a rock star, but makes me sad that she's had to be there so often to be so well known. she got her shots, and DIDN"T have to give a urine sample (on her back, taken with a needle, and can't be too pain-free), and she was so happy to get out of there! we romped a little when i brought her back home, then i had to get back to work.

i wish so badly that i could be home with her more often. not every day, but more than two days in seven. i know she sleeps mostly, i know she's just fine guarding the house by herself, but wouldn't it be lovely to have just a few more days with her? i guess i realize her mortality, that her days are few in comparison to mine, and i want more of them. i figure that if i can get her past eight years, the rest is extra. my goal is ten years, and she's five now. so far so good.

i think that Stephanie's death has made me realize, too, that it's so easy to die. one wrong decision, being in the wrong place at the wrong time, and it's over. death is so close to us, closer than i ever thought. a lot of it is out of our control, so things happen when they do. i just want the odds in my favor. i wear my seatbelt, i floss, and i get regular checkups. the rest is up to the gods.

hibernation mode

had a lovely weekend up north at a beautiful resort. they have "working weekends" where you work for half a day, and stay 2 nights for hardly anything, plus they feed you saturday night! each cabin has it's own sauna - the first thing we did was crank that sucker! i must have one someday. it's so relaxing. i would like one right now, please.

we hiked around, and took naps and sauna'd and watched movies. we saw a fox! extra close-up too, right outside our picture window. i do love traveling with my man. we have similar philosophies - we enjoy the journey as much as the destination. he is my hero.

pup stayed with her cousins the huskies and auntie and uncle, and she did very well. only needed pred once - it makes me fell so good that they are learning the signs, like groaning and looking sort of droopy. yay dog camp! and i do love it when they come for camp with me - such sweet pups!

my latest challenge has been to stay awake and accomplish things after work. this far north, it gets dark at 5:30, and the sun doesn't rise until 7. i've been crawling into bed at 9, reading 20 minutes and zonking out! so today i've turned on my lights and am forcing myself to stay awake at least until 10. one must have goals.

i also have this really strong urge to go to the grocery store and do a super-stock-up run. i'll probably do that this weekend, 'cause i need things, but these instincts are so strong! i must be reverting or something - hibernating, setting up winter stores, craving fat... wait, no, that's all the time! yeah, that's it. it's my instinct to have lots of ice cream around. can't help it.

and now, i would like some snow.

xxoo