all i can do

this week has been a blur. between watching the reports and doing what i can to help, i can't think. i yell at the radio reports - we are represented by such a selfish, asinine, arrogant jerk that i can hardly see straight. what a huge sacrifice for him to make, cutting his vacation short to come back to work and see what he could do 4 days after the disaster. AAAAGH!!!!! i would love to write what i'd like to do to his scrawny little lying throat, but i don't want the secret service on my doorstep. how dare he not be at his desk the MINUTE he knew the storm was going to hit?? and now he's speaking as though it's some project that didn't quite turn out the way he'd like. "I'm disappointed in the results, but we're making progress". and before that, practically denying that we need any help from other countries. JUST SHUT UP!! get out of the way and let the pople who can actually do something do it! i am even more pissed at the idiots who elected his worthless, imbecilic ass. i hope they are ashamed of themselves.

i wish i had the lottery won so i could send more to the humane society, the aspca, the red cross, everyone who can help those poor people and creatures get out, get food and water, get meds and help and sleep and shelter. my company is sending $8 million so far - i'm amazed. they match all donations by us and have sent even more beyond that. big companies have their advantages.

i keep putting myself in that situation - losing everything, only having time to grab pup, and where would i go? how would i survive? hell yes i'd break into a shop for water and food if i or my people or pup were starving. hell yes. my heart breaks for those who survived the storm only to die waiting for help. young, old, sick, injured. how can this happen? how will the survivors ever heal? thank the gods for their neighbors taking them in. i'm looking in to what i can do to help with the people coming all the way up here to minnesota, if my company will sponsor volunteer training to help, anything. this will last for years - the emotional scars, the health problems, the tragedy of the city of new orleans, and how they'll rebuild it. years and years.

and another day passes...